A Little Bit Surprised

I will admit, I'm not very self-aware.  I had fully intended to blog more often than every two months.  I figured with all of my wacky stories and crazy antics, the blogs would flow out of me like water from a fire hose.  However, any time I thought about my poor, starving blog, I couldn't think of anything to feed it.  Then it made me sad that my life is so boring that I have nothing to post about.  Is there nothing going on in my life, no little insights or life lessons learned that anyone would be interested in reading?  The answer is no, there are a lot of things going on in my life, all kinds of crazy antics, lessons learned every day, wonderful stories of friendship and love.  I just can't sit down and write them!  I have never been very good with giving details (ask Travis!) and I am way too distractible thanks to my self-diagnosed adult-onset ADD.  For example, after writing that last sentence, I was distracted by wondering if I spelled "distractible" correctly.  After fretting and worrying for nearly 3 minutes, I came back to finish the rest of my blog!  Now, where was I...

Oh yes, I'm not very self-aware.  I always see myself as being able to do way more than I actually can.  I think it is funny whenever people say that they admire how I am willing to always try new things.  Frankly, I never go into something thinking, "Oh, I should try this because learning how to do it will enhance my life and will make me a better person."  I think, "HA!  That looks easy!  I could learn how to do that and then work it into my daily life and do it forever and then I will be this wonderful multi-talented, multi-faceted person that everyone thinks is amazing!"  That never works out and it's pretty prideful.  So far this year (it's only February people!), I have decided I would like to swing dance, learn Swahili, go sky diving again, start boxing in Sigourney, make friends with some British people, take a photography class, memorize all the countries and their capitals in the world, talk to my grandmother every Wednesday, plan a snowboarding trip, learn how to make tamales, buy a lathe and learn how to "turn wood," volunteer for the Ronald McDonald House, and read a TON of books.  Chances are I will probably do some of these things but, in my mind, that isn't enough.  In my mind, I should be able to do ALL of these things, AND be on time to everything, AND keep my house sparkling, AND be there for everyone who needs a friend, AND be a good teacher, AND be a devoted wife to Travis.  I have set myself up for some major breakdowns and disappointments.  I do it all the time--but EVERYTIME I'm a little bit surprised that I couldn't do all I set out to accomplish.  I guess the positive side of this is that I have learned a little bit about a LOT of things that no one really cares about.  I can say "lakini katiki mambo hiyo yote tunashinda na zaidi ya cushinda kwa yeye alietupenda. "  I think that is Romans 8:28 in Swahili...